You know when you're on a big flat piece of land or water and you can look out and see the horizon and it feels like the world will just go on forever? I sort of feel that way a little bit now.
Have I neglected to mention here that I scheduled our phone consultation with Dr. Brilliant at Clinic D? Before going on, let's recap for those who don't remember:
Clinic A - Dr. Hope
Clinic B - I never named the doctor there because I didn't end up cycling there as she validated everything Dr. Hope was doing, but, let's call her Dr. Encouragement
Clinic C - Dr. Expert
Clinic D - Dr. Brilliant
The call will be at the end of January, and, I'm really looking forward to it. I really have no idea what to expect. I have sent them, I swear, a 3 inch stack of paper that comprises my infertility medical records, plus I have records being sent from some extraneous doctors. I am not naive enough to believe that he is going to have the magic potion that will suddenly make me produce 10 healthy eggs, but, well, let's just wait and see.
However, I think I'm getting much closer to, if we do not cycle at Clinic D, being ready to go the donor egg route. And, I think that is giving me a little sense of peace.
I guess finally being close to selling my house has given me a renewed sense of optimism about good things happening for us.
I look out at our horizon and I feel hopeful!