Monday, March 16, 2009

Hit the jackpot this morning

I had to go to the RE this morning to feed the vampires and for a date with the ultrasound wand (we're GOOD friends, if you know what I mean, wink wink). It was exceptionally crowded this morning. One of my problems is that I'm not good, in a large crowd like that, of just putting my head down and reading. I'm way too busy looking around (you know, that way we have of looking without really looking like we're looking) and paying attention to what's going on around me. I also found myself having an emotional morning, which is due, in part, to sheer exhaustion, and, in part to the following.

Lisa's List of RE Office Emotional Triggers

Adorable child in the waiting room - the main office of my clinic has a "please do not bring children into the waiting room" sign, but the satellite offices, one of which I frequent, do not. It doesn't matter as it doesn't really stop people in any of the offices. Now, I'm not one of those people that gets angry about it. I totally understand that sometimes you just might not have any other option. My problem is with the people who bring their kids in and proceed to make it like a Mommy and Me class - clapping, singing, hugging and kissing, etc... Seriously, if you have to bring your children, cheerios and a picture book should be whipped out of your Petunia Picklebottom diaper bag faster than your nice little date with the ultrasound machine turns into a "friends with benefits" situation! The only blessing to crying at the mere sight of those adorable urchins playing is that the tears blur the image.

Ultrasound pictures - In the world of babymaking, they can cause such joy when in your hands, but, in the hands of others, can result in feelings of sadness, jealousy, anger, frustration...you get my drift. On any given morning at the RE's, you may see several couples, smiles from ear to ear, clutching the ultrasound pictures that give them tangible evidence that whatever procedure they endured has paid off and there is a baby growing inside of one of them. Cut to me, where the tangible evidence of my repeated failed procedures is the tears that begin to roll down my face as I watch them in basking in their joy. For added sobs, give the ultrasound pics to the male partner and have him gaze at them in awe and wonderment while the female partner is checking out.

Fetal heartbeat whooshing sounds - You would think that either the walls between examination rooms would be thicker or the doctors doing ultrasounds would have learned to lower the volume by now, but, that little sound (OK, it's a very big and powerful sound) has the ability to send me into spasms of sadness. Honestly, I don't think I even need to say more....this one is pretty self explanatory.

The more early mornings you spend at the RE's office, the more incidents of each of these you'll experience. Each is bad enough on its own, but, today, I was blessed with all three. A trifecta, of sorts.

11 comments:

Gina said...

I'm sorry you had to deal with that Trifecta this morning.

I love that you say "feed the vampires" since I am obsessed with Twilight, and have read all of the books and saw the movie, and I'm waiting for the 5th book and new movie to come out. (Sorry I'm a Big Dork)

Emily said...

Oh honey! Not a jackpot any of us wants to win! I was LOL at many lines though - "friends with benefits" especially!

Hope the move is going well and hope it was a good appt despite the torture.

I so play the "I wonder what thier story is?" game in the waiting room btw!

BagMomma said...

I know this so well, unfortunately. It used to be I just hated the OB/GYN's office, and now it's spread to the RE too.

Dagny said...

Good lord.

((((HUG))))

You sure did hit the jackpot.

xoxo

shiner said...

Oh that's just shitty! Of everyone involved. The people in the waiting room should realize what kind of office it is...people are there because they are having trouble having a baby. The staff should know better,too. This is all just straight up irritating. I am afraid to even set foot into my RE office to pay the bill, much less flash ultrasound photos or bring a small child...that's just rude! So sorry people are stupid. I am just hormonal enough to kick their a$$es for you.

So, dear, how are things with the cycle?

Cathy said...

Oh Lisa - I'm so sorry you had such a bad morning. When we got our US pics I made sure to keep them in my pocket when we were leaving. I knew how much it hurt me to see people checking theirs out.

We brought Jake by to say HI on Friday - I made Jason go in and check out the waiting room first - if there was anyone in there we weren't going in. I remember how angry I got at the main office when there were kids everywhere!

GL - let us know how the cycle is going!!! Hopefully you will be successful and not have to deal with all this for much longer.

Beautiful Mess said...

Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry you had such an emotional morning. I'm thinking about you
*HUGS*

Ms Heathen said...

I'm so sorry that you had to deal with these painful reminders, Lisa.

Each and every appointment is difficult enough without having all of this to deal with as well.

Anonymous said...

I hate that for you - it just sucks totally!! I totally understand I was on a conference call last night for a group that I vol;unteer with and one of the women is a new mom so for the entire call there was a fussy baby in the background - I tried to focus on the task at hand but all I could think of was that baby!

Wishing 4 One said...

Man that sucks. People are whacked and don't think do they? Thinking of you...xoxoxoxo

Molly said...

That was one jackpot you did not want to hit. I'm sorry that you had to deal with the Trifecta. I don't know if I would have been able to remain unemotional and in control under the circumstances.