You can be "just a little pregnant", despite what they say

Sorry I'm posting so late, but, I needed to let some regular readers (Mom and Aunt Shelly) know first as I didn't want them to read this here!

I am pregnant!! But, well, I'm just a little pregnant. At 11dp3dt (11 days past a 3 day embryo transfer, for those of you who don't speak infertile) my clinic likes to see your beta above a 50.

My beta today is 33.

Honestly, this could go either way. We'll know more on Friday, when we see how much my beta has gone up (or, well, gone down....).

I had a really tough weekend. I am a serial POASer (pee on a stick-er, again for the non-infertile speakers) and they were negative all weekend. That, coupled with the lack of any physical symptoms and I was pretty convinced that this didn't work. Until yesterday.

I FINALLY tested positive yesterday! And, based on that, based on when I got a positive digital test and knowing the level of hormone necessary for a digital to register positive, I expected a beta today between 25 and 35, so, the fact that it's at the top of that range, honestly, I'm feeling OK!

Today is a very special day for the Jewish faith. Not only is the celebration of Passover beginning tonight, but, today is Birkat Hachama, or, The Blessing of the Sun. It only happens once every 28 years and recognizes our belief that, today, the sun is at the same point as it was when G-d created the world. This feels very symbolic to me. If G-d give us this child, he will be creating a whole new world for us - a world we've waited a long time to be part of (ok, not 28 years, but, it feels like it sometimes!). And, for someone who was dreading the seder tonight, expecting a negative pregnancy test, this is something I can wrap my hope and my faith around!

So, for now, we'll revel in the fact that, as we sit with our family at our seder table tonight and tomorrow night, we'll do so knowing that there is life growing inside of me!!

I'll let you know what Friday's repeat beta shows...