Wednesday, April 8, 2009

You can be "just a little pregnant", despite what they say

Sorry I'm posting so late, but, I needed to let some regular readers (Mom and Aunt Shelly) know first as I didn't want them to read this here!

I am pregnant!! But, well, I'm just a little pregnant. At 11dp3dt (11 days past a 3 day embryo transfer, for those of you who don't speak infertile) my clinic likes to see your beta above a 50.

My beta today is 33.

Honestly, this could go either way. We'll know more on Friday, when we see how much my beta has gone up (or, well, gone down....).

I had a really tough weekend. I am a serial POASer (pee on a stick-er, again for the non-infertile speakers) and they were negative all weekend. That, coupled with the lack of any physical symptoms and I was pretty convinced that this didn't work. Until yesterday.

I FINALLY tested positive yesterday! And, based on that, based on when I got a positive digital test and knowing the level of hormone necessary for a digital to register positive, I expected a beta today between 25 and 35, so, the fact that it's at the top of that range, honestly, I'm feeling OK!

Today is a very special day for the Jewish faith. Not only is the celebration of Passover beginning tonight, but, today is Birkat Hachama, or, The Blessing of the Sun. It only happens once every 28 years and recognizes our belief that, today, the sun is at the same point as it was when G-d created the world. This feels very symbolic to me. If G-d give us this child, he will be creating a whole new world for us - a world we've waited a long time to be part of (ok, not 28 years, but, it feels like it sometimes!). And, for someone who was dreading the seder tonight, expecting a negative pregnancy test, this is something I can wrap my hope and my faith around!

So, for now, we'll revel in the fact that, as we sit with our family at our seder table tonight and tomorrow night, we'll do so knowing that there is life growing inside of me!!

I'll let you know what Friday's repeat beta shows...

25 comments:

Linda said...

Hugs, prayers and good thoughts Lisa. Talk about stress! It gave me chills when I read about this special holiday for you. It has so much meaning and is so true. I'm thinking of you every day!

Emily said...

Shedding tears of joy for you, Lisa. What a special, special day. I love, love, love that today is the Blessing of the Sun. Enjoy sharing your good news and have a wonderful seder knowing that for today YOU ARE PREGNANT!

Congrats! C'mon little one, its time your time...

Kami said...

Wishing you nothing but a smooth pregnancy and a happy baby in 8 months.

Enjoy!

shiner said...

Oh that is wonderful! You are right - it will change everything. I have no complaints of motherhood after waiting 6 years to be here. Even the no sleep, sore boobs, poopy diapers, etc are a pleasure and seem like a priviledge. I hope everything goes well Friday. I am thinking about you and praying for you.

Robin said...

Sending you lots of good wishes and prayers!
xoxo
Cousin Robin

Mrs.X said...

Send lots and lots of good thoughts your way that the 35 will turn into a nine month bender. Many hugs!!

Christi said...

I'm keeping good thoughts and saying lots and lots of prayers! How symbolic that today is the blessing of the sun!!

grow embabies, mommy and daddy have been waiting for you too long!

Beautiful Mess said...

How exciting! Enjoy your Seder tonight. I'm sending good thoughts and prayers your way.

the d'angelo family said...

Delurking to say CONGRATS!!! Grow little one, grow!! Many blessings to you and your family as you celebrate!!

Ariella said...

Lisa, I am so thrilled for you today. What a wonderful day to get a BFP! I will be saying lots of prayers for you that your beta grows and doubles like it should. Enjoy today because TODAY YOU ARE PREGNANT!

MJ said...

praying for doubling beta numbers on Friday.

nishkanu said...

These low beta situations are very challenging. I'm happy you are able to embrace and enjoy, and wishing you all the best for your next beta.

twondra said...

Congrats!!! I hope Friday's beta goes well!!

Soapchick said...

You are pregnant! Now praying that your beta doubles and that baby grows for a healthy 9 months!

Dagny said...

Whoopieeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!

I' m crying here.

Congrats Lisa. :)

xoxoxo

musicmakermomma said...

Congratulations! The first number is not as important as the doubling. Hang in there - this part is worse than the 2ww to me. Hoping for big numbers on Friday!

Sian said...

Wow! Great news. Lets see what the count is on Friday!

Ms Heathen said...

This is such wonderful news, Lisa!

Waiting, and hoping, and holding my breath until Friday's beta.

Tina Ryan said...

Oh Lisa! I have such hope and joy in my heart for you and Glenn. I will be keeping you in my thoughts praying for a good number tomorrow!

Anonymous said...

LISA! I can't believe I checked your blog today! I'm so glad I did! I will start saying massive amounts of prayers for you!! Stick little one - stick!!!
- Kristin

squarepeg said...

Oh Lisa!! Sending you GREAT big doubling vibes!

Erica said...

ok, it's Friday. I've praying for you. I hope that you get wonderful news today and that your betas have more than doubled!!

Sasha & Mark said...

Hang in there...!! Thinking of you...

Mel ~ Psyched for Baby said...

Honey - my 1st beta at 9dp5dt was only 39 and I just hit the 31wk mark yesterday! We transferred a morula and a blastocyst so I'm convinced it was the smaller morula that stuck around! (Gotta root for the little guy!)

Thinking of you and wishing you the best as you await results of beta #2.

I'm just so happy for you!

Natalie042205 said...

Lisa I am so so excited for you!!!!! I'm keeping my fingers crossed and saying lots of prayers for a nice big number today!